Less than a week later, I can see the possibility that my chaotic life could take on some order in the near future. I sure hope so because the past five weeks have been nothing short of hell.
My last job sucked away every chance I had at staying positive during this employed student life I now lead. I have fallen behind in my schoolwork due to lack of free time to work on my projects and pure exhaustion, which made me sleep longer than usual. My new job, which I started last Sunday, seems to promise a more stable situation. I can choose how much I work, I get a break during my shift, and I get to leave according to my scheduled time. This means predictability of free time. I am also working much nearer to my school, which allows me to spend more time on campus working on my projects and less time traveling. I will have to make extra effort to catch up on my assignments, but it's certainly doable with determination and focus.
In the midst of this, I feel peace in prayer and what I can guess to be meditation. Just sitting on train on the way to work, closed eyes and slow breathing, just feeling my own spirit within and knowing it is immune to the outer pressures of this world. It's helped me find balance.
I cannot wait to be caught up. It's exciting to see the things I've done so far. I am an animator. Making images move and is a wonderful feeling. I have created characters out of nothing and breathed life into them making them lovable, despicable, or awesome. What an amazing gift this is. I want to master these skills as quickly as possible. It's addictive.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Friday, August 08, 2008
Better
A quick update on my situation due to this horrendous hour of the morning alongside the need to announce things are better than my last post.
My last day at the ice cream store is this afternoon. I was hired at the job my roommate recommended and am certain it will yield a friendlier schedule. I will be one of those annoying people tourists find at the city attractions who corral them into group photos and try to sell a photo package after their tour. It's higher pay than the ice cream store and it's in the downtown area, so I can access school either before or after work, which will allow me more time to work on my projects and less time on the transit. Whew!
My professors have been amazing during these first few weeks of the quarter. I have kept them informed of the strains work has put on my study time and they've given me more breaks than I could have asked for. I will most certainly be able to pull through now that this new job is underway. I am very excited about finally being on track.
I've organized my room a bit differently, setting up the milk crates in a bookshelf fashion. Even that improved the look of the room. Yesterday my awesome roommates and I had a roommate pow wow, which involved installing screens in our windows and discussions about sharing the fridge, pantry shelves, and cleaning duties. How wonderful to have a screen in my window, allowing me to let fresh air in minus the bugs. Before this luxury, I was running a small fan during the night for airflow which did the trick but also neutralized the beep from my alarm in the morning. It was always a crap shoot as to if I'd hear it.
I do not know for sure when I can bring my stuff here from the storage garage in Toledo, but I've set a goal to figure out how to do it before mid-September. I have quite a few things aside from my own furniture that would be great to have here. My roommates are looking forward to my working vacuum cleaner, for instance. :)
I have set down my knitting for now and taken up reading books on the transit. This is a nice little change and I've been wanting to find time to read non-school books. A friend from Toledo visited a couple weeks ago and we stopped into a used book store where we found two copies of Tess of the d'Ubervilles. Neither of us have read this novel but have wanted to (knowing it's not a happy tale), so we both bought a copy and vowed to discuss our individual progress. We are a miniature book club.
Also, I have remembered my daily prayers. This has been missing, and I know from past experiences that when things get rough, I usually find this corresponding with lack of prayer. Not that prayer keeps the bad days away, but it certainly makes them more tolerable and solutions more visible. I believe my renewed commitment is helping.
I feel balance is near. Maybe one day I can have a little thing called free time and phone a friend for dinner.
My last day at the ice cream store is this afternoon. I was hired at the job my roommate recommended and am certain it will yield a friendlier schedule. I will be one of those annoying people tourists find at the city attractions who corral them into group photos and try to sell a photo package after their tour. It's higher pay than the ice cream store and it's in the downtown area, so I can access school either before or after work, which will allow me more time to work on my projects and less time on the transit. Whew!
My professors have been amazing during these first few weeks of the quarter. I have kept them informed of the strains work has put on my study time and they've given me more breaks than I could have asked for. I will most certainly be able to pull through now that this new job is underway. I am very excited about finally being on track.
I've organized my room a bit differently, setting up the milk crates in a bookshelf fashion. Even that improved the look of the room. Yesterday my awesome roommates and I had a roommate pow wow, which involved installing screens in our windows and discussions about sharing the fridge, pantry shelves, and cleaning duties. How wonderful to have a screen in my window, allowing me to let fresh air in minus the bugs. Before this luxury, I was running a small fan during the night for airflow which did the trick but also neutralized the beep from my alarm in the morning. It was always a crap shoot as to if I'd hear it.
I do not know for sure when I can bring my stuff here from the storage garage in Toledo, but I've set a goal to figure out how to do it before mid-September. I have quite a few things aside from my own furniture that would be great to have here. My roommates are looking forward to my working vacuum cleaner, for instance. :)
I have set down my knitting for now and taken up reading books on the transit. This is a nice little change and I've been wanting to find time to read non-school books. A friend from Toledo visited a couple weeks ago and we stopped into a used book store where we found two copies of Tess of the d'Ubervilles. Neither of us have read this novel but have wanted to (knowing it's not a happy tale), so we both bought a copy and vowed to discuss our individual progress. We are a miniature book club.
Also, I have remembered my daily prayers. This has been missing, and I know from past experiences that when things get rough, I usually find this corresponding with lack of prayer. Not that prayer keeps the bad days away, but it certainly makes them more tolerable and solutions more visible. I believe my renewed commitment is helping.
I feel balance is near. Maybe one day I can have a little thing called free time and phone a friend for dinner.
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